It seems like I'm surrounded by death these days. A link on Gwyn-sama's lj, the news, life around me, my colleague's miscarriage, Heath Ledger's death this morning on my phone as soon as I woke up.....
It's so depressing. And work? Getting me down. It's not the thing I love although I'm learning a lot from it but Jesu, it's too much. I'm swimming way past out of my comfort zone (and everyone knows I swim like an anvil) and I'm definitely over my head.
I suppose part of the reason is because I'm no good at asking for help. Sure, I'll ask for advice and how-to but after a while....I guess I'm just incapable of saying the most important things. Half the time, I tend to phrase it vaguely and people just dismiss it.
At the moment, I don't even have friends to hang out with. Wake up, eat, go to work, come home, shower, eat, go online, drop dead asleep. Rinse and repeat.
It's too routine now. Life just feels so goddamn tiring. It's a chore. I don't think I've laughed in weeks.
Speaking of work...it's now past 1am and as it turns out....I forgot which shift I was on and ended up 2 hours late for work...oops...so I ended up working 5-1am.
XD eehehehheheehhhh <insert bleating sheep>
Gods, I'm tired and sleepy....but I got to try out my new heels and they're suprisingly comfortable enough for RM29.90 worth...sweet...