It's been an interesting month.

[13thfallenangel]

It's been a month of ups and downs....well, I think it's been more than a month. But this is the first time I've come close to being kicked out of Uni. Still yet to be confirmed.

And my personal life. Yikes.

When I first started this LJ, I allowed it to be public because I didn't mind strangers from across the ocean to comment on it.

Then I started selectively adding friends.

But now that squirryl suddenly appeared out of nowhere to comment on one of my posts, I find it hard to post anything up right especially in regards to my personal life and friends. I could have made this friends only but I don't want to. I want complete strangers to read this and know that someone out there is having similar problems too, ranging from the menial to the huge. Note the term complete strangers.

Reason being that my friends are too close to the problems I want to sound out. And I wanted a somewhat objective (as far as objectiveness gets) place for me to write down things and later look back and analyse things.


I still sometimes think adding friends to my LJ was a daft decision but I don't regret it. I regret many things but not this one.

I don't think I'm explaining myself clearly.....oh I don't know....I'm just tired of the shit heaping down on me right now. I mean, I was pleased at something today but I regretted having to.....well......I regret that badly but it's the truth and it hurts like someone just decided to give me multiple cuts then dip them in lemon juice and rub in salt.

 

I'm going to go demolish a melted strawberry cheesecake now. And drink lots of water.

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[squirryl.livejournal.com]

"But now that squirryl suddenly appeared out of nowhere to comment on one of my posts, I find it hard to post anything up right especially in regards to my personal life and friends.... I want complete strangers to read this and know that someone out there is having similar problems too, ranging from the menial to the huge. Note the term complete strangers."

Excuse me for not being a STRANGER. Although I am not a friend either, I posted because I admire your ability to be self analytical and be working your issues out.

I too have suffer from deperession, (ADD), lack of direction, regrets and an overbearing mother than I cannot even live in the same state of Australia with.

But I am a firm believer that you make or don't make choices in your life that result in where you end up. And "YOU" are the only one that knows "everything" that you have been through, what you aspire to or even just what you "don't" want in your life...

Hence, the reason that I posted that you should be taking responsibility for your life direction and results, not letting someone else decide for you.

I am sorry if you feel that I was attacking you or out to cause you trouble as that was not the case. And all i wish you is happiness and the strength to sort through your issues...

And I will post to you no more.

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[13thfallenangel.livejournal.com]

It's not that I'm accusing you although I wasn't thinking straight when I wrote that.

Basically, you're currently too close to the current drama and it might...well....you know...