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May. 3rd, 2006 12:57 amI want my own little clean corner where I can just curl up and cry.
times like these, I wonder why I haven't been reincarnated into an animal. An animal's life is a hell lot less complicated than a Human's especially with the way my brain works....thinking fast, too fast, superspeed, even lightspeed and then I just end up sluggish because my thoughts are going too too fast and my body can't catch up. I'm just glad I can actually sleep nowadays as compared to when I was a child but even then I push myself to exhaustion before I can finally sleep.
I like things simple, elegant, occasionally complicated, content. I'm not asking for a completely bland life, but I don't believe that the "perfect happiness and one true love" (ok, I'm going to barf at that) is true....you gotta work at it and I'm just not one for committed relationships.
It's days like these that I miss Juliet, just because I know which buttons to push and she give me a good slap to the arm. I don't hurt myself nor will I ever do it intentionally but sometimes a little physical pain helps me to focus. God, I miss martial arts.
Times like these make me wish I could have been accepted into the police force but Heavens know....what would you do with a half blind psychotic girl with a bad temper and a....liking for weapons.....
It would be nice to have a rock to hang on to but I don't really have one. My big sis is great and all but sometimes....well...
A nice BIG cardboard box, lots of pillows and a blanket.....that would be just lovely....
times like these, I wonder why I haven't been reincarnated into an animal. An animal's life is a hell lot less complicated than a Human's especially with the way my brain works....thinking fast, too fast, superspeed, even lightspeed and then I just end up sluggish because my thoughts are going too too fast and my body can't catch up. I'm just glad I can actually sleep nowadays as compared to when I was a child but even then I push myself to exhaustion before I can finally sleep.
I like things simple, elegant, occasionally complicated, content. I'm not asking for a completely bland life, but I don't believe that the "perfect happiness and one true love" (ok, I'm going to barf at that) is true....you gotta work at it and I'm just not one for committed relationships.
It's days like these that I miss Juliet, just because I know which buttons to push and she give me a good slap to the arm. I don't hurt myself nor will I ever do it intentionally but sometimes a little physical pain helps me to focus. God, I miss martial arts.
Times like these make me wish I could have been accepted into the police force but Heavens know....what would you do with a half blind psychotic girl with a bad temper and a....liking for weapons.....
It would be nice to have a rock to hang on to but I don't really have one. My big sis is great and all but sometimes....well...
A nice BIG cardboard box, lots of pillows and a blanket.....that would be just lovely....
