THAT TEARS IT!!!!!

THAT TEARS IT!!!! THAT TEARS IT!!!!! I GIVE UP!!!! I'M FRUSTRATED AT MY SELF-DESTRUCTIVE SELF BUT GOOD GODS IT'S TURNED INTO A FUCKING AVALANCHE!!!!!!!


So, of course I'm flunking this semester as well, so I sent in a course switch application so I can still have my visa around and somehow salvage what's left with my course coordinators....that's right, with an s because I'm taking a Double Degree which I now hate with a passion.

Guess what, dear old dad dropped another bomb on me. Apparently, my Canadian Trust Fund Scholarship has a clause. If I fail 2 semesters in a row, they're not going to pay up the money my parents have been sending them since I was in kindergarten. WHOOP DE FUCKING DO!!!!

I didn't even want to go to Uni in the first place!!! Why couldn't have my parents set up a normal college trust fund instead of this weird arse company who never keeps track of my Australian bank account details?!

I am so ready to give up right now. Just call up the shipping company and have them pack up all the junk I have and head back to the firing squad back home. With the shitty bookstore. And crazy traffic. And beggars. And unhygienicness.

Gods, one freaking bomb after another. I caused all this in first place but good grief it's turned into an avalanche.

Well, one of my worst fears has or is about to come true. 

I have no money.

I have only a DIploma as my highest certification.

I don't have a part time job in Australia.

I am so fucked.






Fuck shit.