past lives?
Sep. 20th, 2004 01:56 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
13thfallenangeli keep getting weird thoughts really. I mean, here i am brooding n i keep referring to myself as a guy in my thoughts...not really referring but its an impression...the thing is, i like men, i don't find girls attractive for me, i do have a sense of aesthetics n appreciate beauty, but i lean towards guys....y do i refer myself as a male? i know i'm a tomboy, but i'm under the impression that i'm a bit more feminine now....past life maybe? i was a guy? weird huh? *laughs*
is past lives really possible? i mean, i do have an irrational fear of strangulation to the point i can't button the collar of a starched white shirt because i feel like its choking me.....nowadays, that choking feeling seems to follow me....even when i'm only wearing my undergarments!! >_< weird, maybe i'm stressing out too much?
karma karma karma
death scares me....i've had an understanding of it since about kindergarten...i would lay in my bed at night in the dark n imagine myself dead, looking up from my coffin.....needless to say, it scared the shit out of me...i did repeat the experience several times n it still scared me...
i sometimes wonder if i had a violent death in my past life should i had one....i get the impression that i did...strangulation or drowning maybe....just not having the ability to breathe......everything fading away...turning black...choking....
is past lives really possible? i mean, i do have an irrational fear of strangulation to the point i can't button the collar of a starched white shirt because i feel like its choking me.....nowadays, that choking feeling seems to follow me....even when i'm only wearing my undergarments!! >_< weird, maybe i'm stressing out too much?
karma karma karma
death scares me....i've had an understanding of it since about kindergarten...i would lay in my bed at night in the dark n imagine myself dead, looking up from my coffin.....needless to say, it scared the shit out of me...i did repeat the experience several times n it still scared me...
i sometimes wonder if i had a violent death in my past life should i had one....i get the impression that i did...strangulation or drowning maybe....just not having the ability to breathe......everything fading away...turning black...choking....
