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You scored as Armand. Your the mysterious type only those close to you know the truth about who you really are </td> Armand 100% Deacon Frost 92% Blade 83% Spike 83% Dracula 83% Marius 75% Lestat 75% Louis 67% Angel 50% Akasha 50% Whose your Vampire personality? (images) created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Blind Folds. Your turn on is the blindfold. When you can't see, that makes your other senses more aware... including your sense of touch. So who wouldn't enjoy being blindfolded???? Sex isn't sex without enhancing your sense of touch. </td> Blind Folds 67% Chains/Handcuffs 50% Biting 50% Whips 42% Bondage 33% Blood 25% What's Your Kinky Turn On? created with QuizFarm.com

You are a black cat, stubborn yet friendly, you
stick to your values and preferences, and no
one can convince you otherwise! You are the
legendary cat of mystery.


What color of cat are you?
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You scored as Pentagrams. You should start wearing more pentagrams if you don't already. Only idiots think that pentagrams are evil, and need to do some serious research. </td> Pentagrams 70% Ankhs 50% Crosses 20% Pentagrams, Ankhs, or Crosses? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Insane. You are insane man. Red or black or green is your color. You are part of the new revolution. Soon you will be one of us. One large black flame. Peace. </td> Insane 67% Normal 58% depressed 42% Insanity can come in diffrent shades of red... created with QuizFarm.com

stifle

it has been a long time since i've been able to breathe freely.

everything feels stifling and i have nowhere to go, nowhere to escape. i've felt this way for as long as i can remember, but it seems to be more worse. or is it that i'm more aware of it now?

i have a love hate relationship with pressure. it makes me feel alive but at the same time, it drives me absolutely insane and drives my health off a cliff. i make a crappy manager. i can't manage my work time and i can't manage my pressure.

it's times like these, i wish i was born a rich kid. i can just wander from job to job or whatever catches my interest. the whole bullshit about being able to explore your job options is just so not. there's a very big catch, called MONEY! i ain't got no cash, i'm just some lower middle class nobody who couldn't be arsed to join the rat race.

i'd really like a nice big fat hint as to what my future would be. at least then i won't feel so lost, or at least worry that i'm going the wrong way.

scream with me

channel surfing, i saw a documentary on a monastery in taiwan. here i am, thinking that maybe i should become a nun, shave my head and shit, be compassionate and help people and pray and chant and stuff. but then i realised that i would get seriously bored, i need stimulation, and i already cop enough pain and agony and negative vibes just going out and interacting with people.

days like these, i wonder who's the energy vampire sucking out my energy. either that or my empathic abilities gone on the fritz and i'm absorbing too much negative vibes again. urgh. i feel crap. my hormones aren't helping either.

i should clean my room. the feng shui is fucking bad from my dropping stuff everywhere. really bad. i wish they'd let me put up another hook on the door so I CAN ACTUALLY HANG MY CLOTHES UP!!!

i sooo need a new place. i just have no idea where to start.