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13thfallenangelit has been a long time since i've been able to breathe freely.
everything feels stifling and i have nowhere to go, nowhere to escape. i've felt this way for as long as i can remember, but it seems to be more worse. or is it that i'm more aware of it now?
i have a love hate relationship with pressure. it makes me feel alive but at the same time, it drives me absolutely insane and drives my health off a cliff. i make a crappy manager. i can't manage my work time and i can't manage my pressure.
it's times like these, i wish i was born a rich kid. i can just wander from job to job or whatever catches my interest. the whole bullshit about being able to explore your job options is just so not. there's a very big catch, called MONEY! i ain't got no cash, i'm just some lower middle class nobody who couldn't be arsed to join the rat race.
i'd really like a nice big fat hint as to what my future would be. at least then i won't feel so lost, or at least worry that i'm going the wrong way.
everything feels stifling and i have nowhere to go, nowhere to escape. i've felt this way for as long as i can remember, but it seems to be more worse. or is it that i'm more aware of it now?
i have a love hate relationship with pressure. it makes me feel alive but at the same time, it drives me absolutely insane and drives my health off a cliff. i make a crappy manager. i can't manage my work time and i can't manage my pressure.
it's times like these, i wish i was born a rich kid. i can just wander from job to job or whatever catches my interest. the whole bullshit about being able to explore your job options is just so not. there's a very big catch, called MONEY! i ain't got no cash, i'm just some lower middle class nobody who couldn't be arsed to join the rat race.
i'd really like a nice big fat hint as to what my future would be. at least then i won't feel so lost, or at least worry that i'm going the wrong way.
