past lives?

[13thfallenangel]

i keep getting weird thoughts really. I mean, here i am brooding n i keep referring to myself as a guy in my thoughts...not really referring but its an impression...the thing is, i like men, i don't find girls attractive for me, i do have a sense of aesthetics n appreciate beauty, but i lean towards guys....y do i refer myself as a male? i know i'm a tomboy, but i'm under the impression that i'm a bit more feminine now....past life maybe? i was a guy? weird huh? *laughs*
is past lives really possible? i mean, i do have an irrational fear of strangulation to the point i can't button the collar of a starched white shirt because i feel like its choking me.....nowadays, that choking feeling seems to follow me....even when i'm only wearing my undergarments!! >_< weird, maybe i'm stressing out too much?
karma karma karma
death scares me....i've had an understanding of it since about kindergarten...i would lay in my bed at night in the dark n imagine myself dead, looking up from my coffin.....needless to say, it scared the shit out of me...i did repeat the experience several times n it still scared me...
i sometimes wonder if i had a violent death in my past life should i had one....i get the impression that i did...strangulation or drowning maybe....just not having the ability to breathe......everything fading away...turning black...choking....

Comments

[tychon.livejournal.com]

In one's thoughts or dreams, you'll sometimes find yourself being represented as something other than what you physically are. Usually it has to do with what the mind feels is comfortable with. If your mind feels more comfortable with you as a guy, voila. That's not always why, but it's one viable reason.

Past lives being possible? Sure, it's possible. It's possible that the universe is suspended on the back of a turtle too. Unlikely, but possible. Ultimately unprovable, so it's really up to whatever you choose to believe in.

And be happy you're afraid of death - you're supposed to be. It's natural, and certainly helps to keep you alive. Which is a good thing. :D