phantom lover
Sep. 23rd, 2004 12:57 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
13thfallenangelsometimes i dream of vampires n darkness
sweet soothing darkness that caresses me
holding me gently like a lover would
with the presence of the dark ones
haunting me n teasing me
will i get my chance to be with them?
i am so tired of being just One
i just want to know what it is like
to be more than One
sometimes i dream of lust n a raging sea
i dont know if i can ever feel again
day after day my soul is chipped away
my emotions corrupted
i run on autopilot n masks
acting out to a script pre written
in the back of my mind a sea is formed
raging n churning away
sometimes i feel myself drowning in that sea
not really dying or breathing
just being tossed about
n letting myself go with the currents n flows
brushed by dark unseen creatures
floating away n away
not have to bother with where to go
enjoying the peace n sensations offered
sometimes i am blind n can only smell
with my touch n without hearing
tantalizingly the sensations
the teasingly brief touches
the whiff of a fleeting scent
so finite but so intriguingly wonderful
how i wish to indulge n never let go
sometimes i wish that i could just only
let myself drown in my dreams
to never bother getting up
to never have to be used n discarded again
to never have to grit my teeth
i just want to drift away
in the arms of my phantom lover
22nd september 2004
13th fallen angel
i just simply wrote this, it was supposed to be a rant but i guess i found my poetic streak again! yay! i'm stressing out over my last major assignment (i can't do websites to save my life) n i have an exam next week n 2 group reviews on friday......joy......n a 2 week break n i'm not going back to malaysia...gods, wish i could go back, but without my parent's knowledge....the only problem would be lodging n money....well, maybe not money.....but i would not have a place to stay n definitely not in a hotel!!!
gods, i miss KK!!!!!
sweet soothing darkness that caresses me
holding me gently like a lover would
with the presence of the dark ones
haunting me n teasing me
will i get my chance to be with them?
i am so tired of being just One
i just want to know what it is like
to be more than One
sometimes i dream of lust n a raging sea
i dont know if i can ever feel again
day after day my soul is chipped away
my emotions corrupted
i run on autopilot n masks
acting out to a script pre written
in the back of my mind a sea is formed
raging n churning away
sometimes i feel myself drowning in that sea
not really dying or breathing
just being tossed about
n letting myself go with the currents n flows
brushed by dark unseen creatures
floating away n away
not have to bother with where to go
enjoying the peace n sensations offered
sometimes i am blind n can only smell
with my touch n without hearing
tantalizingly the sensations
the teasingly brief touches
the whiff of a fleeting scent
so finite but so intriguingly wonderful
how i wish to indulge n never let go
sometimes i wish that i could just only
let myself drown in my dreams
to never bother getting up
to never have to be used n discarded again
to never have to grit my teeth
i just want to drift away
in the arms of my phantom lover
22nd september 2004
13th fallen angel
i just simply wrote this, it was supposed to be a rant but i guess i found my poetic streak again! yay! i'm stressing out over my last major assignment (i can't do websites to save my life) n i have an exam next week n 2 group reviews on friday......joy......n a 2 week break n i'm not going back to malaysia...gods, wish i could go back, but without my parent's knowledge....the only problem would be lodging n money....well, maybe not money.....but i would not have a place to stay n definitely not in a hotel!!!
gods, i miss KK!!!!!
