numb again
Sep. 20th, 2005 08:35 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
13thfallenangelthe water in the shower was warm, which disappointed me some.
i want it to be hot, i want it to scald, burn my skin.
i feel numb and almost blank...i feel the need for pain, if only to wake me a little.
i'm not about to start cutting because i feel a natural disguist for it, was it a past life? but i certainly wouldn't mind bruising...i do miss my martial arts...
numbness indeed, almost as bad when i was a teen.
i want it to be hot, i want it to scald, burn my skin.
i feel numb and almost blank...i feel the need for pain, if only to wake me a little.
i'm not about to start cutting because i feel a natural disguist for it, was it a past life? but i certainly wouldn't mind bruising...i do miss my martial arts...
numbness indeed, almost as bad when i was a teen.
